Friday, November 25, 2005

All Week I have been very irritable, and grumpy even ! Every thing bothered me. I now realize why. It hit me tonight when Jen and Jordan came for supper. I was feeding Abby while Jen was on the computer checking her e mail. A song was softly playing on the radio. Tears started to fall. I couldn't help it. This is the last weekend that I will be with my kids for a while. They move to B.C. day after tomorrow. Jen came into the room. I said to Abby " grandma is emotional, but I guess that's okay. I can be." I told that to Jordan when he told me they were moving. I said to him that I give them my blessing and am happy for them but I will be sad to see them go. So now I know why I was so irritable all week. Not that I'm grumpy that Jen and Jordan are leaving and have the nerve to take my granddaughter with them. Hee hee. I'm just trying to hide my sad emotion. Why do we do that? We try not to show emotion. Heaven forbid that anyone knows that I'm sad. Well tuff, I am sad. I'm a mom and even though I know it's very normal that my kids spread their wings and leave the nest. I feel very sad. I will miss them.

Saturday, November 19, 2005

What a difference a day makes. It was -27 just a couple days ago. Today it is a sunny +6. The snow is melting, and it feels like spring. I had all my windows open to let in the gorgeous fresh air. Isn't it amazing how a nice day can invigorate a person. I slepted in until 10:00 AM. So nice for a saturday. Then I got up and the sun was shining so brightly in my apartment. It made me feel like cleaning. I scrubbed happily along. Washed my floor, vacuumed, dusted, even scrubbed my stove. Wow. It felt like spring so why not do some spring cleaning. Then I went out to get groceries. Tonight I went to my nephew Trevors play at his high school. Now I'm home and just finished stuffing peppers for a meal I'm having here with the family tomorrow. It's 12:30. Late I know, but I still feel like I have energy to spare. It's been a very fantastic saturday. I would love it if this weather stayed until spring. Ya right! Only in Victoria, or perhaps Summerland. One can always dream. Cheers all.

Saturday, November 12, 2005

Little Darlin!

Today I looked after my darlin grand daughter. We had so much fun playing. She loves music. I would sing to her and her face would light up in this huge grin. I would sing and clap, and she would clap along with me. I showed her pictures of her and her mom and dad that were posted on the fridge. She immediatley bent towards the photos and kissed them. It was so cute and endearing. What a brilliant baby. She played so happily and she said "okay" all the time. She loves her stuffed puppies so much. I would ask her where the puppies nose was and she found it every time. She also mimicked me. I have a cough and every time I would cough she would give this star performing fake cough. Darlin Abby you are so smart and grandma is going to miss you when you move to B.C. I know you are going to have lots of new friends there though. You will be able to play with Megan and Ben Heigh, and Nathan and Graham Dykstra, as well as the babies that auntie Amanda and uncle Steve will have one day. You're going to have lots of friends darlin Abby. So will your mommy and daddy. I love baby. Thank-you for being so wonderful. You're such a delight!

Friday, November 11, 2005

Would somebody please remove the batteries!

There is a woman that works with me who is 70 years old. My goodness she's a mover and a shaker. I swear sometimes this woman is a robot. At 70 she can move like lightening. I find it hard to keep up with her. So do all the rest of my co-workers. From morning til the end of the day she goes at full speed. I tell her" Edith if you don't slow down I will have to remove your batteries". She just laughs at me. Edith not only works at the RCMP cleaning but she has another job working in a care home. She looks after old folks her age and older. I get a chuckle from this. She works in a care home looking after people her own age. Kind of ironic, don't you think. I admire Edith. She has such a good attitude. I don't think she will ever slow down until she is gone from this world. I hope that's not for a long time yet. She should be enjoying her retirement. She tells me she can't be still. She needs to keep moving. I hope that I'm like that when I get her age. My Grandma Miller was like that. At 80 something she was going on trips by bus to Las Vegas. She said that if she had to slow down it would kill her. My granny Brown is like that too. She is 90 this month. She is another mover and shaker. She walks every where. Although I have noticed she looks a liitle more frail every time I see her. After all she is 90. I think she is doing so well. I hope that I do that well when I get her age. I think her positive attitude has every thing to do with it. Go granny go. Go Edith go. I will try to keep up and follow in your foot steps.



Charles Swindoll

"The longer I live, the more I realize the impact of attitude on life. Attitude, to me is more important than facts. It is more important than the past, than education, than money, than circumatances, than failures, than successes, than what other people think or say or do. It is more important than appearance, giftedness, or skills. It will make or break a company a church a home. The remarkable thing is we have a choice every day regarding the attitude we embrace for that day. We cannot change our past we cannot change the fact that people will act in a certan way. We cannot change the inevitable. The only thing we can do is play on the one string we have, and that is our Attitude. I am convinced that life is 10% of what happens to me and 90% how I react to it. And so it is with you we are in charge of our Attitudes."

I think this is such an amazing quote from Charles Swindoll. Attitude is a choice. I must admit that I don't always choose the right attitude. My response to certain situations are not always what they should be. Sometimes I choose the negative response rather than try to see the positive. I'm ashamed when I do that. For the most part I am a postive person. Even when I was going through my divorce ( and it was very difficult) I still kept thinking things will be okay. Look for the rainbow. God promised us rainbows. Sometimes people get so bogged down with negativity and finding fault with every little thing that they miss the rainbows. That is sad. I don't know about you, but I want to continue to keep my attitude in check and keep spotting those rainbows.

Thursday, November 10, 2005

My good friend and co-worker was invloved in a hit and run car accident yesterday. It was a police chase and the suspects hit my friends car. I got to work this morning and found out that It was my freinds car that was hit. The jaws of life had to be used to pull her out of the car. The suspects that hit her ran a stop light and broad sided her on the drivers side. She went through extensive tests all day today. She was in excruciating pain in her hip and back. The Dr. had to make sure she didn't have internal bleeding. All day I prayed for my friend Chantala. (everyone calls her La) She lights up whenever I call her by her full name. Just yesterday we were at work talking about motherhood and how she felt. Even though she is a refugee from Laos come to Canada, and can't speak the language very well, we have much in common. She is a woman, and a mother and she knows what it's like to love her kids and worry about them. We were talking about this at work yesterday. We were also laughing about the guy who left his undrewear on the floor and we had to clean his room. At 4:00 Pm.we said goodbye wishing each other a good night. God knew that on her way home she would be involved an accident. As I watched the news last night I had no idea it was my friend that was involved in the wreck. I'm still waiting to hear how she is. Tomorrow I will go to the hospital to try and get an update. I'll take her a gift. It was such a reality check of how things in life go. Tonight I called to her to see how she was. The latest news is she will be okay. She will be off work for possibly months. Wow. Strange thing is as I was driving to work this morning Cantala was on my mind. I was smiling as I thought about our talks and our joking. When I got to work I thought it strange that La wasn't there yet. She is always early. Then I heard the news. Poor La. I'm praying for you.

Saturday, November 05, 2005

Feeling Blue

Tonight I'm feeling blue. My Jordan , Jen and Abby are moving away. I'm very happy for them! I'm excited for them and jealous too cuz they get to move back to beautiful B.C. I miss the mountains. It will be wonderful for Jen because she has never lived anywhere but Saskatchewan. I give them my blessing. I told Jordie boy the other night that I know God has been preparing my heart for awhile now. I just knew that some day they would move away. Today as I sat thinking, it just hit me. I will miss them so much. I felt this way when Tiff and Brian moved to Ontario. I knew it was Gods will , but I am human and feel such a connection with my kids. It will be sad to see them go. I'm so thankful to Amanda and Steve for taking them in , til they can get a place of their own. I also know that God is taking care of my kids. I pray for them always. I also look forward to when I can go out and visit them in B.C. I don't blame Jordan for wanting to go back to B.C. I love it there. I lived there most of my life. Born and raised. Not in Summerland, but a little more north. Jordan, I just want to let you know how proud I am of you and your family. You turn out to be a great son, husband and dad. I will miss you very much. So even though I think it's a good thing, I also feel sad emotion. So tonight I will allow my self to have a cry and then get on with things. That's okay!


Strange Folk!

Sometimes people can be so strange. I popped out to get some cough medicine for this pesky cough I have. While I was out I decided to drop a few bottles to sarcan , since I was passing by the place, and had bottles in my car since monday. While I was standing in line waiting for my turn, a man in front of me started talking to me. He started to tell me about his house and no flooring because the floor layers haven't been able to finish the job. He tells me about not being able to do laundry cuz the washer and dryer are not hooked up , so his common law wife is about to wash her bra and panties in the tub. He said if it was up to him he would just take a plunger and water in the tub and get his under wear clean. My thought was "excuse me, plunger and clothes does not make clean linen." Talk about freaky deaky. I was quite shocked that a total stranger would be talking to me about his unmentionables. Then he was talking to me about him being on a farm at one time milking chickens and feeding the pigs. I was semi tuned out, trying to read the many signs that sarcan has posted. Rules about bottles with out lids, sort types beore hand, milk cartons, pop bottles, cans. I think I did that when I was prepping my recyclybles before I left my house. Mean while I could hear this mans voice in the back ground going on and on. I am not a pushy person. I just smiled and nodded every so often , pretending I was interested. What kind of a person talks to a total stranger about anything and everything. I couldn't wait to get through the line so this guy would stop talking about his wifes panties. Weird! I just had to shake my head and laugh. It takes all kinds to make the world go round.

Friday, November 04, 2005

I'm so happy it's the weekend. I've had a very busy week. So many dirty little puppies. (cadets)
They are called puppies because they are so new at this cop thing. They have no idea when they start training , how difficult it will be. We have at least 2 per troop that just can't take it. They resign or get kicked out because of broken rules. I guess that is the reason training to be a RCMP is so tuff. They need to know right off who can cut it. I'm really proud of the ones that graduate and are given the title constable. They work hard and deserve the badge. There are a few that graduate and are posted some where in the real world and then realize it's too difficult. Then they quite soon into their career. I guess it's good ,cuz I want the best of the best out there protecting me. Any way back to the dirty lil puppies. I'm exhausted! So now that it's the weekend, I'm happy to relax and burn candles. That is my weekness. Party lite candles. I love love love them. I burn candles all around my house. It's so zen like. I love the nice clean fragrance of those delightful candles. They beat the store bought dollar store candles any day. That's my opinion. I should be a party lite rep. Then I could say, " I'm not just a sales rep , I'm also a client." But I'm too busy and tired to be a party lite rep. So I'll just continue to be a customer. I think that works out just fine.

Thursday, November 03, 2005

It's the weekend! Hooooray!

It's the weekend. Yipee! Every bodies working for the weekend. I know we should live one day at a time and enjoy every day. But when you work hard for a living, it's so nice when the weekend comes. It's a time to relax, sleep in , putz around the house, go out with friends and family and just plain kick back. I love the weekend. It goes by way too fast. It seems that the week can drag on so slow, and then when the weekend comes time speeds up. Go figure. I guess it's just a reminder to enjoy each day as it comes. But lately it seems that I work and then come home and then when I get home I go to bed very early. Especially in the winter. It's dark at 6:00 pm. So my body tells me I should be in bed. I suppose I need to listen to my body. Sleep when I'm tired, eat when I'm hungry and party when I have the energy. That's what my dear Jen wrote a few posts ago. She's a smart cookie, that daughter in law of mine. anyway, to all you hard working folk ( 9-5 or 24-7 stay at home people) have a great weekend. I know I will.
Update on the giant.

Got to work today and was just waiting to see if my supervisor was going to tell me that we would have to move our giant again. So far so good. I saw him walking down the hall coming from his room. He didn't say a word. I hope he had a good sleep. I also hope he didn't have nightmares. ;).

Horseback Riding When he walked by me he didn't smell like a horses _ _ _! I think we fixed the problem. Lucky for you Mr. giant. I didn't want to see you sleeping on the floor.

Wednesday, November 02, 2005

Oh my goodness, we have a giant living at depot for the next 2 weeks. He's so tall that he has to duck his head going through many door frames. He checked in on sunday night, and by monday morning he came to us and asked if we possibly had a longer bed. The one we gave him was too short. Apparently he is 6'9" Pretty close to 7'. Wow! Shock 2 When I looked up at him, I almost fell over backwards because my head was so far back. So anyway, our task was to hunt all over base to see if we could find a 7' bed for our new friendly giant. We found one out in the arena. Yes , success! Not. The horse barn is at the back of the arena. This bed and mattress have been stored there for a very long time. Many years. So needless to say it kinda smelled of a barn. We aired it out, sprayed it with febreze, and washed up the mattress cover. We thought we had the problem solved , but according to our lovely new giant it still smelled of horsey. Nose So today a co- worker and I had to go and find a solution to this dilema. What to do, what to do? We have to make our guest as comfortable as possible. We didn't even have sheets to fit a 7 foot long beds. We were using sheets from our double rooms. The width fit ,but the length fell short by several inches. We tried everything short of sewing 2 sheets together. We pinned, and pulled , and cut, and wrapped, 5 sheets around the mattress to try to disguise the barn yard smell. I think it did the trick. We'll see tomorrow after our giant has a sleep on his new bed. I hope he is happy. If not my supervisor said we'll have to give him 2 single mattresses on the floor and he can make his own bed each day. We tried! Believe me we tried ! I don't mind trying to do what it takes to make our guests comfortable, but if they are still not happy and choose to complain then it gets to be discouraging. So sleep well you freindly, grummpy giant. If not you will be sleeping on the floor tomorrow night. Poor guy. Teary